Mommy Karma

I don't think I ever was bold enough to say what I would and wouldn't do with my kids when I had them. However I have judged silently some moms in public. I mean it's kind of easy to pass judgement on others when you are so perfect.

I don't know if it's the fact I have three kids now, or they just seem to be testing me more lately, or that I am completely out of energy, but my mommy karma is coming back to kick me in the butt.

At the beach in Carlsbad Caroline wasn't the happiest. She doesn't really like being outside in the bright light. So I decided to leave a little earlier than the rest of the crew and go start dinner and get the kids cleaned up. James had other plans. He was playing his heart out. I loved watching him have such a good time but in the interest of my plan he had to leave the beach. Well, we will just say he pitched a fit. A big enough commotion for strangers to comment. That's just embarrassing. I could only threaten a miserable life and try to get him to work with me. Needless to say it was ugly.

Today we adventured to Costco. It has been awhile, and since I can't seem to get the schedule worked out so that hubs can be home and share in this errand, I toughed it out and went by myself with the 3 kiddos. I wear Caroline in her Moby Wrap and since it is a double cart I usually push both the kids in the cart. This is fairly manageable. Today James wanted to walk, so I gave an inch and let him walk. Also Caroline wanted to look out. So I had to fiddle with her a bunch and hold her with one hand before she was settled and somewhat happy. So between James running around using his outside voice, Caroline complaining about the view, and trying to concentrate on what exactly I needed at Costco, I gave up.

Jerry and I have been at a grocery store and laughed (a tiny laugh) at a mom who had clearly given up. Her kids were in the way, running a muck, and she just shopped along minding her own business. I wish I could say at that point in time I didn't declare that would "never be me." But I think I might have.